Scribes from the Goddess
Dear Goddess,
Where am I going wrong in my call to be an artist - something feels off or missing. Please give any advice you may have for me.
Stephie
Dear Stephie,
Sweet girl, you are far too worried about what people think about you. And you are are too concerned about the dollar signs than expressing yourself authentically. You know where you’re supposed to go, but you are avoiding it to make safe and happy art. You need to dig deeper, you need to paint the edges and the dark shadows. You’re still that trapped little girl trying to be as tiny, small and unnoticeable as you can get - but honey, you aren’t in danger anymore.
You were given gifts when you came here to help you survive what you’d be in. You are intuitive as fuck, quick thinking, and you can read a room without thinking about within seconds, you are also insanely empathic. But, you need now to pick and choose how and when you need to access these gifts. You have other gifts you’ve not even allowed yourself to look for.
You are from a long line of trauma and abuse - but you are making sure that YOUR family branch ends that cycle. You feel some guilt at getting to heal and you feel fear. You fear if you take down your walls, you’ll be vulnerable and get hurt. But my love, you can use all those materials you tear down to build yourself a shelter to protect you. A shelter where you can let others in who can help you and protect you instead of impenetrable walls that keep everyone out - and that you try and trap others inside with you rather than trusting that they WANT to be there.
Be more open. Will people fuck you over? Maybe dear, but they won’t be able to BREAK you because you are UNFUCKWITHABLE. Your body bends, not breaks. You’ve survived and you now feel a burning desire to THRIVE.
You are loved. You are deserving. You are starting to truly wake up and remember. When you were little, you knew there was magic. You’d make your spells, and potions - to protect you. And you survived. Remember it all, let yourself.
You are a strong, magical, powerful, juicy woman and the Divine Feminine is embracing you and begging you to be your full self!
With all my love and blessings,
The Goddess
Right after Unhinged, I started painting…these were the fruits of my labor.
